Hello Wives,
I want to give you and update on my growing process as I have been preparing to move.
This has been a major transitioning period for me, my marriage and my family. There were several times in this journey I considered family and friend’s feelings. When I did this anxiety and fear overtook me because I was not focusing on what God told me to do. It is very hard leaving your hometown and relocating. God lead me three times during this process to Genesis 12:1. The scripture speaks on the call on Abraham’s life. God told him to leave his hometown and go to a place he has prepared for him. Well for me this meant my home town in the natural and my hometown in the spiritual realm. I had to trust God in the not yet shown places where I could not understand what came of my future. I still don’t know, but what I do know is that he is with me and in the end I win.
Example of leaving my hometown in the spiritual realm: In my thoughts when I became afraid I began to try and control my atmosphere so I can feel comfort. I would call my husband several times a day to know his whereabouts. I did this because focusing on him was easier than examining my thoughts and searching God’s word to find comfort from my fears. This over time became overbearing and my husband began to feel trapped by my insecurities. I was trying to get him to heal. Well, this is where God challenged me to leave my hometown of looking for man to do what only he can do: the work to open up the door for my healing through Christ.
Example of leaving my hometown in the natural realm: When my home was on the market to be sold I really did not want to leave my home. This was my first home and God had taken me and my family through a lot of healing in that home. I often had thoughts of staying there and not relocating. However, it was through this process he continued to show me Genesis 12:1. He sent us an offer within one week of my home being on the market. That was too fast. In the negotiation process of selling the home I was hard-balling to no end. I never consulted God in the process because my heart was not really ready to let go off my home, so the offer went dead. Over the next week I prayed and talk with God. To make a long story short, we went back to the same people and they had put an offer on another home. The realtor did not contact them and it had been three day since that submitted a request for the other home. They really wanted my home, so they withdrew there contract on the other home, we talked and came to an agreement that satisfied both parties. My home was under contract 2 weeks after it went on the market. My challeng in leaving my hometown in the natural was to go when God told me to go.
My faith has grown in leaps and bounds. God’s love is so gracious. More than we can imagine. He only wants me to love him and rely on him.
N.P.
